Epiphany

She appeared resplendent in a colourful garb,

So lovely that I had to remember to breathe.

Her eyes shone as I watched them tear up,

And I wondered if she could look any more winsome.

She sat there looking into the void, in choked desolation,

Her face expressing melancholy and despair.

As I gazed at her with uttermost love and concern,

A solitary tear trickled down her cheek.

I said ‘don’t’ while subduing the inordinate urge

To take her in my embrace and rid her of the pain.

As I looked at her, helpless and stock-still,

I felt a stir of emotions within me.

Along with that, however, came the realization

That the sight I had just witnessed

Was the most beautiful thing I had seen in aeons,

A sight to remember, a sight to cosset.

Life, Relationships and Weird People

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As far as relationships are concerned, I am pretty old-school. When I get into one, I sincerely hope that it lasts forever. However, in general, most of the plans we make tend to go in vain. Circumstances change and so do people.

I have been with many girls. However, I have been in love only once in my life. Needless to say, the relationship met its fateful end. The girl kept breaking up with me and coming back repeatedly. I could not trust her anymore. After a point, when I found myself mentally and emotionally drained, I told her that we were better off without each other. Although it shattered me, it was the best thing to do.

I was in another relationship after that and it lasted for two memorable years. We spent most of our free time together, had great fun and were loyal to each other. The only reason we had to break up was that I had to leave the country. If I had stayed, I think we would have gone a long way. However, I suppose it was not meant to be. Also, this was my most recent relationship.

I later decided to take a break from relationships and focus on my career. Besides, most of the girls I came across seemed shallow and pretentious. Of course, genuine people do exist. However, they are apparently very hard to find. Therefore, I have stopped looking. I said to myself (like a boss) –

I am done looking for love. Let love find me!

Have I lost faith in love? No, I still believe in it, but have I lost faith in people? Sadly, yes. I feel that most people are not capable of loving truly and sincerely anymore. People seem superficial and selfish. I can only hope that love finds me soon enough. I was watching the movie, Anchorman: The Legend Continues, in which Will Ferrell’s character, in a forlorn tone, says –

I haven’t felt the loving embrace of a human being in over three months.

– Ron Burgandy

Only I haven’t felt a ‘loving embrace’ in over two years! A friend told me that this might be the reason why I am losing my mind. He also added that abstinence causes all kinds of cancer. I, however, chose not to take him seriously since he is only a dentist. I want a girl who has the will and courage to nurture a relationship. One-night stands and flings are ideologies that my principles do not approve of. Yes, very old-school.

To say that my life is weird would be an understatement. It seems as if I’ve been banished to the land of the weird. Most of the things that people say either irritate me or make no sense. Recently, a girl, I cared for just as a friend, randomly told me –

I can only be friends with you. All I can offer is friendship. That’s it.

Now, that is sad and hilarious at the same time. I actually got ‘friendzoned’ by a girl whom I just considered a dear friend. My only fault was that I was affectionate and caring towards her. Bummer! Who thought being friendzoned by a girl who was never a love-interest in the first place could hurt? This incident made me feel so many emotions simultaneously that I actually created a bar chart. Yes, seriously.

Friendzoned!

I expressed my disappointment and told her that not every guy who is nice to her is trying to be her man. Although she later apologized and seemed genuinely sorry, I doubt it will be the same. Call me sensitive if you will, but it’s just weird and awkward now. Perhaps, I’ll be able to get over it and joke about it later, but only time will tell.

Such weird encounters make me want to take a break from people. I would rather spend time with close friends who understand me. And when I’m not doing that, there are so many productive activities I could concentrate on. Like work-related research, getting better at the guitar, working out and so on.

But yes, when love does find me, I will be ready.

Where is the Love?

It’s a cruel world indeed. There is apathy and impassiveness all over the place. We live in a world where most people seem indifferent to the atrocities and the wrong happening around them.

But then there are some people who restore your faith in humanity with simple acts of kindness. KINDNESS. That is what the world desperately needs at this point in time. We as individuals cannot rid the world of poverty, we cannot solve the water crisis in Africa, we cannot stop terrorism or control unemployment. But I believe we can make a difference by just being kinder to the people around us. If everybody adopts and embraces this philosophy, the world would become a much better place.

Now, we do not need to turn into vigilantes and bash up the bad guys, or engage in philanthropy and social service. However, if you can in any capacity, that would be awesome! If you think you don’t have the time, you can do your bit by just being kind.

I see people behaving like complete a-holes for no apparent reason. To be honest, there are times when I feel like turning into one, and I say to myself –

People are selfish, rude and messed up. Being nice will do me no good.

I have had people telling me that being an utter a-hole is the way to go in today’s cruel world, where people who are nice are taken for a ride. But is that the solution?

Just because you feel that life has been really unfair or people you cared for wronged you or you have been through too much, you don’t have to turn into a bitter, vindictive person. If everybody ends up having such a negative mindset, there would be too much hate in this world. Imagine that! We all have experienced terrible and unpleasant things in the past. And we’ll probably have more of those in the future. That’s life. All we need to do is be strong and learn to deal with our issues in a healthy manner.

Love unconditionally. Have the heart to forgive. Don’t hold grudges. Don’t vent your anger and frustration on someone else. Have the courage to apologize when you feel you have messed up. Keep your ego in check and make amends. Be nice to the people around you and don’t expect anything in return. A good friend once told me, “Good karma never goes to waste.” And I believe that.

Stand up for people who are being treated unfairly. If somebody seems upset, spare a couple of minutes of your time and talk to that person. Spread positivity and make people smile. Simple acts like offering to help a colleague when he or she is struggling with work, or telling a girl that she looks gorgeous can really have a powerful effect. Doing such things can really make somebody’s day. And yours too! Spreading positivity will rid people’s minds of bitterness and resentment. It will give them hope, restore their faith in people and inspire them to be kinder. Also, the joy and satisfaction you’ll derive from making people feel better is just priceless.

Cheers, to a better world!

If we’re destroying our trees and destroying our environment and hurting animals and hurting one another and all that stuff, there’s got to be a very powerful energy to fight that. I think we need more love in the world. We need more kindness, more compassion, more joy, more laughter. I definitely want to contribute to that.

– Ellen DeGeneres

The Guitar – How the awesomeness began!!!

Beginning to play the guitar was something that happened to me by chance. It all started when I along with my family went to visit my father’s close friend, George, at a nearby city. I was probably 15 back then. Although I was already into rock and metal, the idea of actually learning to play the guitar had never really occurred to me. But the aforementioned visit changed that, when I met George’s son, Rohit. When I entered their home, I found the guy jamming in the living room! He was playing a sexy metallic-black electric guitar, while he was surrounded by all the cool gear..I saw amplifiers, several effect pedals, cables, etc. Of course, I was totally clueless about all this equipment back then, but what I knew is that they looked freaking badass! All of this was completely new to me and hence I was pretty overwhelmed. But what made me go “WOW!!” was the sound! The heavy distortion sound blew me away!

Later, when I checked out his room, I wasn’t surprised to see the walls covered with posters of bands such as Nirvana, Guns N‘ Roses, Metallica and many more. He had a whole bunch of acoustic and electric guitars lying across the room, which kind of impressed me. As we engaged in discussions regarding guitars and music, I asked him to play some of my favorite songs. I can tell you that watching somebody jam is FAR better than listening to tracks on the PC or iPod (provided the instrument is played well of course). And this guy was a beast! He played solos that were originally played by guitar legends such as Slash, with utter ease. Watching him play gave me goosebumps. At the time, it was almost like watching God work his magic. When he noticed my rising curiosity, he started teaching me the basics after handing me one of his acoustic guitars. And I really appreciated that. He explained about the strings, how the tuning pegs affect the pitch and how the instrument is tuned. When I got a hang of it to an extent, he taught me a couple of chords. I picked up quite fast to be honest. And later, guess what? We jammed! The song was Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana. Our families seemed quite pleased with this development.

Later that day, while we were hanging out with our families, I was surprised when George made us stop by at a music store. Yes!!! That’s when I bought my first guitar! I was elated! Later, Rohit taught me some simple intro riffs for tracks such as the Mission Impossible theme, Deep Purple’s Smoke On The Water and a couple more. And trust me..the feeling I got when I was able to reproduce my favorite tunes, using my own bare hands, was just out of this world! Later that night, when it was time to bid farewell, I thanked George and Rohit. Had I not visited them, I probably would have never pursued the instrument.

And that’s how it all started! I was hooked! I had something to be passionate about. I could spend hours on the guitar and all that time spent on it was more than worth it. I was filled with a sense of contentment. I had something to genuinely feel proud of..

WWE – The Nostalgia

I’m 23 years old now and yet I find myself watching the main event of Wrestlemania 28 with the enthusiasm of a 12 year old boy. I started watching WWE (which was WWF earlier) when I was a little kid and that’s thanks to my brother, who was a big fan. I remember how I used to adore the guys like Bret “Hit Man” Hart, Hulk Hogan, Steve Austin, Shawn Michaels and many others. I used to admire The Undertaker too, although he used to creep me out with his evil-ish looks and the whole “Deadman” persona. The arguments I used to have with my friends as to which wrestler was the most dominant, my brother and I watching it on TV almost religiously, the collection of postcards with pictures of WWE stars on them…these are the memories that I’ll always cherish. Wow, those were the days. I was just a kid who saw those huge guys as heroes. I continued to follow WWE on a regular basis for years. Later on, guys like The Rock and Triple H were also among my top favorites. However, around the time when I completed my Junior High School, my interest in the WWE kind of faded away and I moved on to other things.

I’ve come across a lot of people who make a fuss about how fake the WWE is, how watching it is dumb and a waste of time. And honestly, I’ve found that quite annoying. That’s because these haters think they’re the smart ones and the millions of fans who’re loyal followers of the WWE, are a big bunch of imbeciles. Now, everybody knows that the wrestling in WWE is not actually real. They build characters, create storylines and so on. And the people in this business admit that. WWE is all about drama and entertainment. And the fans enjoy it for exactly what it is. So the haters who still live under the delusion that they’ve made a genius discovery, really need to do some research.

I personally have a lot of respect for these wrestlers (or performers). Why? Yeah they sure practice well and probably even have a couple of rehearsals before the actual performance. But aren’t they putting their bodies on the line just to entertain the people? This business is risky and anything can happen. One error on the performer’s part could still result in his/her bones getting shattered, serious neck or back injury..or something even worse. I still freak out when I watch these guys perform some high flying maneuvers and other stunts.

One bad accident can screw their career and/or physical well-being. So I feel they deserve the appreciation and respect.

Although I’m not a regular viewer of WWE anymore, I still do like to catch certain events which involve my favorite performers, just for the sake of memories. That brings me back to the main event of Wrestlemania 28, “The Rock vs. John Cena”, in which The Rock won, much to my delight. Who doesn’t like Dwayne “The Rock” Johnson? The guy’s got charisma and he’s quite an excellent performer. No wonder he’s doing fairly well in Hollywood.

I never really liked John Cena, despite his popularity. On the contrary, I had always found him to be annoying. And the fact that he has become “the face of WWE” as many put it, kind of pisses me off. So I was pretty satisfied when he ended up losing against The Rock.

Yes, even today, I do turn into a child when I watch it. In fact I still get the chills sometimes, when I watch the dramatic entrance of The Undertaker. I get goosebumps when The Rock delivers one of his signature moves, “The People’s Elbow” on his opponents. I still enjoy listening to his cheesy catchphrases. Sometimes it’s like watching a sitcom. Well, I guess I’ll always have an emotional attachment with the WWE, for the nostalgic childhood memories that it evokes.

Randomness!!!

Finally! I have created a blog of my own. I had been planning to do this for a long long time, and I’m glad now that it’s finally done. So do I have a super-cool idea or an elaborate plan with this? Nope, not really. So why did I feel the need to create this blog? To be honest, that’s not quite clear to me.

Why do people create blogs? Some do it in order to discuss or share their thoughts or ideas regarding a specific subject, or to raise awareness relevant to a particular issue. Some use it to derive the benefits of business activities such as promotions, advertising, etc. Finding like-minded people and thus making new friends might be another reason. While others like to use it as a mere outlet of sorts, when they have too much to say and/or very few people around to listen. Or is it sheer boredom? Perhaps it is.

So what exactly do I have in mind? I don’t think I can be specific, but it is perhaps a combination of some reasons that I just mentioned. So all I can say for now is..welcome to total randomness!

So much of life, it seems to me, is determined by pure randomness.

– Sidney Poitier